My heart is broken

It was Friday around 6pm, and Maya was jumping on Eddie; Eddie started hissing, and I told him, “be nice to your sister!” He looked at me and complained by meowing; he kept looking at me; I could barely see his eyes just above the coffee table, and I said, “do you want to go outside?” He ran to the door. I let him and Dusty out; as usual, Dusty scratched on the door a few minutes later. It was still light out, and my fiancé and I  decided to go to dinner at a nearby Pho place we hadn’t tried yet. On our way out and while getting in the car, I looked at my iPhone and saw some messages from my brother; he had finally sent his measurements for his tux. I asked my fiancé if we could go to Men’s Wearhouse after dinner. We did, and I had a craving for froyo, so we also stopped for some on the way home. We had been hanging out in the living room, and around 10pm, I looked over to the patio door (where Eddie had shown up when he’d want to be let in), and remembered I’d let Eddie out earlier. My memory is still really bad these days, and it didn’t help that Eddie had lost his collar with his GPS tracker the week before.  We had decided, after searching for the GPS tracker (it kept saying it couldn’t be located) near the house, that since he always stuck around the same area, maybe we didn’t need to get him a replacement. The GPS tracker service always texted me when he was out of the home zone and when he got close to the house. Without it, it was so easy for me to forget that he was outside. That night, I asked my fiancé if we had let him in, and he said that he didn’t know he’d been let out.

I started looking for him inside the house, my fiancé went straight to my office, and he complained that he had stepped on something wet. We weren’t sure what it was at first, there was a mini yellow puddle on the floor, too small to be urine, but it looked like Dusty’s medication which he may have thrown up after we had given it to him moments earlier. I went back to the kitchen to grab wipes, and as I reached under the sink, I saw my phone was lit up. There was a missed call and a voicemail. As I picked up my phone to see who had called, my fiancé said that my computer phone was ringing. I was thinking it was FaceTime, but when I walked over, it was my Windows work machine; I had left my VoIP phone on. I thought it was odd, but I figured I should check the voicemail. It was odd to see a 512 number calling at 10pm.

The lady on the voicemail said that they were calling from an emergency animal hospital and asked me to call as soon as possible, so I did.  The lady on the phone told me that they thought they had Edwin; “a gentleman  brought him in” and she paused, immediately I thought that maybe it was because he didn’t have his collar on, and I thought that it must’ve been really hard to get him in there. He fought hard whenever anyone picked him up, and I thought about putting a carrier in my car to bring him home. She continued and said that he had been attacked by dogs, and that he hadn’t made it. I was in disbelief, and my fiancé asked me what happened, and I couldn’t say anything; I passed him the phone. I broke down, and I started crying. After he had hung up,  I texted my sister who then called me. After I got off the phone with her, we had a decision to make about his body. I didn’t know what to do. I was in shock. After thinking of our options, I decided to have him cremated and get his ashes back. My fiancé went to the animal hospital to fill out paperwork. I couldn’t bring myself to go or to see him.

In March 2010, my cousin’s cat had a litter of kittens, and I fell in love with Eddie when he was tiny. I wasn’t in the market for a second cat. I was crazy about Dusty, but he was still sad after our move from Boston and his separation from my roommate’s cat. I thought he needed a buddy to get him out of his funk, so I agreed to take the orange kitten with the blue eyes.


Before I took him home

Dusty was scared of him when I brought him home, but eventually, he began to tolerate him, and eventually he would show him he shouldn’t be messed with. Before I got Eddie,  I had told my mom and I wasn’t sure if I could love another cat like I loved Dusty, but Eddie was just adorable that it made him so easy to love.


Eddie is a Mac

When he was younger, he was  always eating and trying to find food. He loved to eat just about anything and he’d even steal butter from the kitchen. If I left the fridge door open for a minute, he’d be in there trying to see if there was any fish or chicken.

Jackpot: a plate with chicken!

Jackpot: a plate with chicken!


From the beginning, Eddie wasn’t scared of anything; he thought he ruled the place. I would call him the Lion King. He wasn’t afraid of heights (he jumped down from a 3rd floor apartment balcony), and chased a bee even after the bee stung him. He wasn’t scared of dogs and would often jump into our old neighbour’s backyard and they had 2 dogs.


I’m sure this is what he saw

However, he had a soft spot for girl kittens. That was something we took into consideration when we got Maya.. we wanted to make sure he wasn’t going to bully her. This is him with my cousin’s kitten three years ago.


Yup.. he was nursing a kitten who had lost her mom too soon

Yup.. he was trying to nurse a kitten who had lost her mom too soon

I loved his attitude; he complained when I sneezed and when my fiancé would tell him what to do. He thought he was the alpha male of the house, and he didn’t like it when he was shown otherwise. He didn’t like to be picked up, but he would let me give him quick hugs so long as his feet were planted on the ground. He liked for us to scratch his neck, and sometimes if I was lucky, he’d let me pet him for a bit.

He wasn't a big fan of the camera

He wasn’t a big fan of the camera

He was smart and was always exploring. He showed Dusty how to be a real cat; I’m not saying Dusty isn’t a real cat, but Eddie showed him how to run like a cheetah as opposed to Dusty’s version of running which was more like walking quickly, and that when “hunting,” you would put your “kill” (toys) in your mouth to carry them. He kept getting out of the backyard, so I had to get him a GPS tracker so I could see where he was. “Hunting” is still not Dusty’s strong suit; it’s funny to see him stuffing the toys in his mouth with his paws.

He didn't understand why I refused to let him in with a dead bird (even if he hadn't killed the bird himself)

He didn’t understand why I refused to let him in with a dead bird (even if he hadn’t killed the bird himself)

Whenever we’d have people over, Eddie would be all confident and he would let my friend’s dogs know that it was his house by having staring contests with them. Dusty would be hiding, and Eddie would be sitting in the middle of the living room despite all the “strangers.”

He was smart and figured out how to open the doors in our old house. The door knobs were actually handles, and he was tall enough to reach them. It was just a matter of time before he started opening the closet door and trying to open our bedroom door. After he learned, there was no point in closing the door anymore because he didn’t understand if a door was locked, he just kept jiggling it.

He would keep me company when I was working from home and would sometimes share his spot with his sister.  I recently moved their cat tower to my office since they spent a lot of time there. No matter how annoyed he was that Dusty or Maya was on the top level of the tower, he would never fight them for the spot.

Being a good big brother

Being a good big brother

I always thought that Dusty would be the first one to go. He’s older, was the runt of the litter, and he’s had a lot of issues (one of these days I’ll post about his puffy paw pads– that’s what he’s currently taking medication for), and he’s a scaredy cat; always stressed out… Eddie was always so tough I called him a man cat. I’m still in disbelief that he’s no longer with us.

There are so many unknowns: I don’t know exactly what happened to him, who took him into the animal hospital… I can’t help but wonder if he jumped into someone’s backyard with dogs or if he was attacked by a coyotes.  I don’t think that’s going to make me feel any better. I’m so thankful that the man took him in (even if it were his dogs who attacked him) so I wouldn’t be worried that night , and then looking for him on Saturday morning. I’m afraid that I would’ve gone a while without knowing where he was, or worse yet, finding his body with the wounds.

Each day has been getting better, but I know it will take a long time for my heart to heal…

mr fancy

We miss you so much, buddy. I hope you get lots of catnip, chicken, and tilapia up in kitty heaven. Love you.


WIAW #34 – Oh what a day!

Hello :D Welcome to What I Ate Wednesday hosted by the lovely Jenn @ Peas and Crayons!

Yesterday morning started really well; Alicia and I went for a 2 mile run. We went a little slow, but I was pain-free! I’ve been suffering from tight (and painful) Achilles and calves. I rolled out on Monday night and prior to my run, and it went really well.


I got home and went into my home office to turn on my machine only to find that Eddie had had an accident all over my Apple keyboard AND the open laptop, as well as the windowsill, window, floor, and beige couch. I’m going to admit I cried when I saw that.. I was mad at myself for leaving my office open since he’d already had an accident, and I had *just* replaced the Apple keyboard the day before. Eddie’s been having GI issues for a couple of weeks, and I cannot WAIT for him to get better. By the time I was done cleaning everything, it was 11 am, and I wasn’t very hungry at the time. I had a Lara bar since it was almost lunch time anyway.


As soon as I finished making my sandwich for lunch and took a bite, my work phone rang. I then remembered I had to take a photo. I also had some Cinnamon Chex above. Let me tell you, I have not been disappointed with any of the GF Chex flavours I’ve tried so far… maybe it’s because of the sugar, but they’re so so good!!


Ham and cheese sandwich and grape Nuun

The good thing about WIAW is that it makes me realize that I’m seriously lacking veggies… so when I finally decided to make dinner (my fiancé is away on a business trip so I’m cooking for one), I went with the Spicy Thai Turkey Wraps for dinner {just posted the recipe!}. It’s not huge on veggies, but it’s better than what I had during the day…


Eddie was taking a nap on the couch, and my heart goes out to him; he has no idea what’s going on with his body. I really hope this medication works (it’s the 3rd one in less than 2 weeks).


I hope you guys had a better day than I did :D

Glimpse of the Week

found severed finger cookies from last weekend

front row seats for the Primus 3D show.. amazing bass playing…

surprise engagement celebration dinner at the very same table we had our first date

fall/thanksgiving cupcake decorating class

awesome sunset followed by an evening with friends at our house

forced cancellation {due to a stomach ache} resulting in nap time, and cuddles

Announcement + A Glimpse of the Weekend

I realize it’s now Tuesday but I figured I’d show you a glimpse of my weekend.

But before I go into the weekend, though, I have an announcement: after 2.5 years of dating,  the boy proposed on Thursday! Of course I said yes… It was a very sweet proposal at home, followed by a couple of calls to our families. We haven’t talked about a date yet; we’re enjoying just becoming engaged :)

And now onto the weekend…

1. On Friday, we went to see Taking Back Sunday, one of my favourite bands from when going to concerts was my life. It was the 10th anniversary tour for their first album, Tell All Your Friends. The show was sold out, and the venue was packed. I had a lot of fun singing along to most of the songs, and the next morning, I didn’t have much of a voice!

After 4 hours of sleep, I got up to go on a 6 mile run with a couple of running buddies, including A. After a nap, I ran errands, put horror/carnival themed video clips together for the party, and made some goodies for a Carnevil party my friends were hosting. First, we made these “severed fingers” cookies {they looked like this} and I used the Wilton recipe but I used Cup4Cup instead of all purpose flour. they turned out really well! While the cookies were baking, I made some skeleton finger chocolates with pretzel sticks. I wish I would’ve taken photos but we were in such a rush!

2. & 3. We then got ready for the party and went there. The boy and I were clowns.. he was Evil and I was Sad. I really couldn’t look at the boy; he was  scary!! Some of our friends were dressed in carnival themed costumes, and others had halloween themed costumes, or just costumes. We had a blast at the party!

4. On Sunday morning, Eddie figured out how to open the bedroom door and climbed into bed with us. I was thinking he was sooo cute…

5.  … Until I got out of bed and went into the kitchen to find that the cats had pulled a bag from the pantry and gotten a bag of treats out!

We didn’t do much the rest of Saturday.. it was a good day to relax :D

How was your weekend?

WIAW #17 – Working from Home edition

Welcome to another edition of What I Ate Wednesday!

The boy has a cold and has been home this week. I’ve also been working from home as I’m coding a couple of websites for work and it’s easier for me to concentrate when I’m not surrounded by {loud} sales reps.

I had my breakfast as usual.. yogurt. After my last post about the difficulty of mixing the honey and Fage yogurt, I saw the side of the container that said “Suggestion: Please Do Not Stir.” This is to keep the consistency  of the yogurt light and fluffy.  Another thing I realized was that if I take the yogurt out when I take my medication and then wait the 30 minutes before I can eat, the honey will have softened up again so it’s easier to scoop out.  Later on in the morning, I had half a banana… I took the whole thing, but it was a little too ripe for my taste.

For lunch, I had some gluten-free chicken noodle soup I made for the boy on Monday night and some gluten-free lentil crackers. The soup turned out to be a little too heavy for him; he really wanted “noodles” and the only thing I had was quinoa spaghetti. Perhaps it should have been a little more broth based; I may have added too many veggies–corn, carrots, zucchini, red pepper, small potatoes, red cabbage {I had to pull out most of it because it was turning the soup purple!}. Regardless, I thought it was delicious :)

Even though i didn’t have the sales reps to distract me, I did have this little one who wanted to take over my desk; he kept pushing the Macbook back

I had a Kind bar for a snack in the early afternoon {which I forgot to photograph}, and then in the early evening, I had the quality workout to do.  We ended up running to the track {just over a mile}, doing foot drills, then 2 miles at marathon pace, followed by 4 strides, a run back to the store, and core exercises.

For dinner, I just wanted the quickest thing possible as I was exhausted, so I stopped by the grocery store and grabbed a small salad, gluten-free ham, and some Oreo style cookies. I made us some quick sandwiches had a side salad and a Core Power, and then I snacked on some of the “Oreos”

I try not to buy nor consume too many processed gluten-free items. However, these are the two I mentioned above:

  • Mediterranean Snacks Lentil Sea Salt crackers – these are really good. They’re crispy, and not overly staled. A serving has 18 crackers! I have bought these before and I will buy them again :)
  • Schär Chocolate O’s – I wasn’t a big fan of these. The filling didn’t stick to the cookies, but on the plus side, they weren’t too sweet. I don’t think I’ll be buying these again.. I would like to try the Glutino version though.

 I didn’t have time to experiment with healthy Halloween treats, and I probably won’t for the rest of the month. However, i found these online:

  1. Witch Broomsticks – these are made with cheese and pretzel sticks; for a gluten-free version, I’d use Snyder’s of Hanovers pretzel sticks
  2. Jack-o-Lantern Sweet Potato Fries – these are made by making a couple of cuts on a sweet potato after peeling, slicing, and then making a few more cuts for the eyes, nose, and mouth
  3. Eerie Eyeballs – Apple slices, dried apricots, and raisins can look rather scary!
  4. Apple Bites – apples and slivered almonds is all you need!

 Will you be trying any of these treats?

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